i'm on quandary

now, i'm on a big quandary.

do you know that this semester would be my last in senior high school?

i'm just feeling unconciousness, reckless, depressed, and really lot of mind.

come on! this is really bad when i don't even really adhere to one major.....

at first i want to be a city planner...

i will take 

on "perencanaan wilayah dan kota" major

but i thought i need the other choice. then i asked my mom for letting me study in central/east java. but she didn't let me to go there.

then i thought if i didn't pass on itb, i would really go into private university...........

suddenly, i thought that "arsitektur lansekap" on ipb

would be as great as "perencanaan wilayah kota". so i interest to enter that major.

one day, i asked my father for letting me study in central/east java.. without thinking a lot, he allowed me and i was feeling so happy. and my mom didn't have another choice, she have to let me.

in my mind, i choosed undip quikly.

i would choose "teknik perencanaan wilayah kota" there.

but now i have a doubt for choosing undip, i'm afraid that my mom won't be really agree of my decision for going out from west java....

so, i'm really confuse. i just don't know how to choose, i'm so zzzzzzzzzz. moreover my mom say that maybe PTK (perguruan tinggi kedinasan) will be perfect for me because if i have done my study from there, i would be a civil government employee. she suggest me to choose ipdn or stis. but i prefer to choose ipdn. because i want to manage this country, i want to make this country better, perhaps i want to be a president.....

oh my God! i have talked a lot here. i just want to share my problem. maybe you have the same problem with me. guten abend! bonne nuit a tous! xoxo